Wednesday, May 22, 2013

I jinxed myself with the title of my last post!

Ya, totally jinxed myself. Pregnant again, surprise! We are 5 1/2 months along and getting a little nervous for his arrival. The first few months were pretty easy. I am lucky that I don't get very sick with my pregnancies. Once I started to pop my back pain kicked in worse than ever. I am sure it has to do with the fact that I have two toddlers to take care of too. Other than back pain I really can't complain.

I am totally going to have my hands full with 3 boys! I get very nervous when I think about it. Since this pregnancy was a total surprise with a .5 percent chance of getting pregnant on an IUD, I can't help but know that Heavenly Father knew that right now was the right timing. I wasn't even thinking of number three for at least a few years, but he knows me best and knows that I can do it even when I feel like I can't. There are many days where I question myself, can I really do this? Will I be able to meet the needs of all three of my boys? Will I be able to be a good mom even though I am exhausted? Will I be able to breastfeed with out feeling like I am ignoring my other two boys? Will I have anything to give my husband when he gets home after giving everything I had all day to the boys? The answer, I am not sure. It will be hard but I know with Heavenly Father's help anything is possible. I also have an amazing husband who is an awesome father and he always comforts me and assures me that I can do this and tells me that I am an amazing mother.

Though it was scary in the beginning we are very excited for another adorable boy. My son's are so amazing and I am the luckiest person to be their mother. Zach is so excited to have another little brother and constantly talks about him and how he's in my tummy. I know I am biased because they are my children but I think I have the cutest kids on the planet. I can't help but smile at them all day. I am so blessed to be a stay at home mom and watch my kids grow up.

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